Documentary obsessed

I seem to be posting a lot of videos right now…hmmm.
Any-who, I pretty much love documentaries.
Some are amazingly mind blowing + boggling while others just make you want to die so you just stop watching.
For the past few days, I’ve gone documentary crazy and I love it.
I like how they make me think in various ways and I DO learn many new things.
Historical, science, psychology, society, crime….you name it, I love it 🙂

Here are some of the pretty darn awesome and CRAZY documentaries I’ve watched since Sunday and on…with the LINKS too! Wooohoo, thinking ahead of the game you see.

1. Secrets of Body Language
This is the second time where I have had an outburst of curiosity towards body language. Just the tiny movement in the nose such as flaring or a little rub of your hand can tell you SO MUCH. Pretty darn cool. Yep.
http://documentaryheaven.com/secrets-of-body-language/

2. Batman Unmasked: The Psychology of the Dark Knight
I just like batman, even so, it was interesting.
http://documentaryheaven.com/batman-unmasked-the-psychology-of-the-dark-knight/

3. Multiple Personalities
Feels like it’s only something that happens in fantasy land, but its real. The mind is incredible.
http://documentaryheaven.com/multiple-personalities/

4. Jeffrey Dahmer: The Monster Within
I suggest you don’t eat while watching this…if you get what I mean.
http://documentaryheaven.com/jeffrey-dahmer-the-monster-within/

5. The College Conspiracy
This just DOESN’T mess things up in my brain….ya know. I TOTALLY don’t feel uncertain about certain things. ლಠ益ಠ)ლ Ah, but still totally worth watching. (๑>á´—<๑)
http://documentarystorm.com/the-college-conspiracy/%5D

AND for the video I’ve actually put up is:
A Class Divided
Woah. Like woah. Just woah. RESPECT to the teach. ✌ <—haha, my awesome peace sign
Here is the link of the actual website I watched it on, it’s got like this crazy long (at least for me) explanation as to what the whole video is about and has the actual video too.
http://documentarystorm.com/a-class-divided/

The order of the documentaries placed have no particular meaning. They are all amazing. Yep.
Have a noice day….not a typo btw.
\( ‘ v ‘ ) /

‘Commitment’ -Oh my gosh, she said THE word!

You know the saying that the hardest part is starting.

Well, I’m completely and utterly frightened to start my Brozen Dofe award so late in the year.

I’m so frightened it’s literally eating up my mind. I’m scared to even go to the instructor to ask for the entrance slip and to ask any questions. I told my class mates how I was feeling and they asked me

‘What are you scared of?’

Now this moment I was feeling ‘Aporia’. To very vaguely describe: The crazy emptiness you get when you realize that something you believed isn’t actually true.

I realized that there was, in actual fact, nothing to be scared of. I’M the one who wants to do this. HE is the one who said I could. I asked to start. I was super duper hyper and excited about starting this but now, fear is holding me back. Big time.

I have doubts that pop into my head over and over again telling me ‘You can’t do it’ and wondering about all the ‘what if’s’. 

What if I don’t finish in time?

Do I even have enough time?

He said there was…but that was quiet a few weeks ago??

Will I be able to find a place to volunteer in?

After I had finally mustered up some unnecessary courage, I got the entrance slip. This time the problem was that the money had to go somewhere else and not to the school. This kind of sucked because that meant my dad had to take it somewhere himself and I don’t really know how to explain but, he isn’t exactly the type that would do things like that. The even worse thing was, I didn’t specifically knew where you had to take the money to and in the end it had to go to a completely different place.

I’m absolutely terrified, mortified of starting but then I REALLY want to get started and then again I’m afraid. An endless battle continues in my head…

 

If you’re happy and you know it, clap your hands!

Is you're happy and you know it, clap your hands!

STOP. Stop worrying.

I bet you right now, there is something you are worrying about , whether it being a big or a small thing, It’s making you worry and for some people, like crazy.

Everyone worries about nearly everything including myself.  But when I look at this diagram, it make me realize there is no point in worrying. You’r just wasting your energy worrying about something you can’t or can change, making the whole worrying process utterly pointless.

I know this sounds rather corny, but this whole process of asking yourself if you have problems and the two very straight forward final outcomes have really made me happier than I was before. It helps me accept things and learn that things happen and sometimes you just can’t do anything about it which proves me that there is no point in worrying. It just damages you physically and mentally.

Don’t do it.

It’s not worth your time.

 

The ugly truth.

The ugly truth.

This just follows up well to my complaints in my previous post 。^‿^。
Hope is ‘opens’ your eyes if your addicted to social media (phones and all)
I hope you guys found it easier to read because of the way these information are laid out because I do 🙂
Your awesome for making it all the way down here.

”I’m addicted to you”-Avicii

I’m not going to lie. I hated it when my friends had smartphones while I didn’t. My friends with smartphones would have more things to ‘talk’ about because they could do the same things together while I would have to sit in the sidelines and just watch them.
Every time I see a kid younger than me with their head sucked into a little screen, I tend to be amused. I tend to be sad at the same time for me and the kid.

Watching this video, it just makes me more depressed about life because all of it is true. We live in a technology consumed society. It’s ridiculously hard to believe that people in the past used to live without internet while for others it’s phones or both.

I absolutely hate it when I meet up with my friend and all she does is go on her phone. She just sits there scrolling and watching pointless videos while I’m there waiting to see if she even realizes I’m still there!

The thing is, I got a smartphone recently myself and because I didn’t have a phone before, it was like jumping into an entirely new world.  The weird and crazy apps that are floating about in the app store. The fact that I could send messages to my sister through viber instantly, it was and still is fascinating for me.  I sound like I live in a cave…-_- I’m not addicted to my phone…yet, I’ll say yet because I don’t know what will happen in the future but I hope I never reach the ‘yet’.

To some extent I think that people use their phones in the streets to show that they aren’t ‘lonely’.  My friend from earlier, she is always on her phone when she is waiting for me to arrive so we can go to school together. I mean I get that but at least put it away and TALK to me when I come round to your house. Sometimes I thinks it’s her excuse for not talking to me because we have nothing to talk about.

What is really funny is that people have confessed that they rarely make any actual calls on their phones which kind of destroys the whole purpose of having a phone \(*-*)/ My mind just kind of explodes after that. There is no point in living any more =_=”

Smartphones are like drugs now a days, you’ll become addicted (‘let me just quickly check my tumblr, then my facebook, then my instagram, ok I’m done…wait no!’)  and you will have withdrawal symptoms like ‘I can’t live without my phone’ and some people respond with aggression…scary.

I don’t really have any more to write/say..for now.., it’s just the fact that watching this video kind of frightens me because all of it is the truth. The truth sure is scary.

AWWWW SNAP!

It’s mothers day. And I didn’t give my mum anything. Yes, I’m a horrible child.

*sigh

Actually, my mum and I never actually did the whole mothers day thing. It was only a few years back that I actually gave her something. The first time, my sister and I didn’t know how to give it to her so we just left her presents on her bed. Later that day, she frantically came running to me asking where the things on the bed came from and whose it was. It was actually quiet hard to explain to her what exactly mothers day was. The funny thing was, she was extremely reluctant to accept the gift my sister and I had bought…with our own money. And this pretty much repeated for the new few years.

I don’t really feel good about the fact that I didn’t giver her anything but our movers have only finally arrived and all of us in the family have been rummaging through the boxes trying to find our belongings. The even worse thing is, it’s a MASSIVE distraction for me since my end of year tests are all going to happen throughout this week and tomorrow I have a Maths, English and French test. Yepiie. 

But a distraction even worse than the movers, is the classic: internet. Mainly focusing on manga. I was uncontrollably addicted to this manga I was recently reading and just couldn’t stop. I spent the whole day yesterday reading that manga ._. don’t feel good about that. But the key word here, my dear readers, is ‘WAS’. I WAS uncontrollably addicted to it. I WAS recently reading it.

Actually, the only reason I stopped reading it was because I was at its latest chapter. Now I have to wait. Humph. I don’t like waiting. But this time, I’m grateful.

Being under the horrible pressure to catch up on school work/revise (ha, things I haven’t even learned), I snacked. Like a lot. On digestive biscuits. Chocolate covered digestive biscuits. Right now, it all feels well. But I know for a FACT that when the sun rises tomorrow, the feelings won’t be the same .___.

Ha. Ha. Go me, I’m so funny. 

😀 Annyyyywho, have an awesome tomorrow 🙂

I surely will try. Keyword: TRY.

Hope all the mums out there know that they are awesome. Can’t believe mine has still kept me 😉

 

Here we go.

The night before my maths, I sit and read mangas, watch animes, read other peoples blogs. What am I doing with my life? ._.

I know what exactly is going to happen to me tomorrow. I open the test papers and it’s either “yea, I get this, woooohooo, yea, oh no, wait, what is this…oh holy cow, I’m screwed” OR “Skip.Skip.Skip. Hmm. Nope. Skip.”

Happy days.

I have finished going through a past paper so I’m not THAT lazy. I just don’t have any will power to do any more ‘revision’ more like, ‘oh my gosh, when were we taught that’. And by the time its over and I get my terrible results, I’ll say to my self, you should have studied you idiot. But no, we must encourage POSITIVE thinking 😀 I’m telling myself, I can do this. And If I don’t make it, I can proudly say, I did my best. 

….

just stopped and started watching youtube videos XD

Have a nice day 🙂

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